Have you read my story at the beginning of Lies Young Women Believe? Maybe you’ve seen me talking about my experience with lies in the video section of this site. (If not, go back to the homepage and click on videos at the top of the page. Then click on Erin’s story and I’ll be right there staring back at you through the screen).
When Dannah asked if she could share a part of my testimony in the book, I was a little nervous. When I had to tell the tale myself on the radio and in front of a video camera, I was terrified. As you’ll see on the video (or read on pages 11-12 in Lies Young Women Believe) for years, I was in bondage to a series of lies. As a result, I struggled with panic, anxiety and fear. Several years ago, Dannah prayed with me to receive truth, and I was delivered. But, this is a very private part of my life. I wasn’t sure I was ready to share it with the thousands of girls who would be reading Lies Young Women Believe.
Then this week a friend of mine from church called me out of the blue.
“I just bought the book Lies Young Women Believe, she said. “Have you heard of it?”
“Yep,” I said, not wanting to confess that I was the Erin the authors wrote about in the introduction.
“There is an edavis mentioned in here. It says she’s married to her high school sweetheart and that he’s a youth pastor,” she went on. “Didn’t you and Jason meet in high school?”
Jason is my husband and the youth pastor at our church.
“Yep,” I said.
“Are you the edavis in this book?” She cut to the chase.
“Uh-huh,” I said nervously.
My friend and I chatted for a little while longer about the book. When we hung up, I started to sweat. The people at my church were going to know my secret. The word was out. I used to have panic attacks (and still do on rare occasions). I struggle with fear. I’ve fallen for lies. I am not perfect.
In that moment of fear, I had a choice. I could nibble on old lies, or choose to rest in God’s truth.
One of the lies that I believed for years was that I couldn’t wear my heart on my sleeve or it would be crushed. I was scared to be transparent. I was convinced that if others knew I wasn’t perfect they would turn and run.
I wonder if any of you are facing the same doubts. As you begin to search your own heart and life for lies, as you begin to replace those lies with God’s Truth, and as you start to seek freedom from the bondage lies have created in your life, are you afraid to share your journey with others? Are you embarrassed that you have been deceived? Does it seem like you are the only one who Satan has managed to trip up? If so, it is important for you to realize a few things.
1. Satan Lies to everyone.
You certainly aren’t the only girl who has fallen for Satan’s lies. In fact, he successfully deceived the first woman who was ever created. Eve fell for a lie in the garden. Women (and men) have been tricked ever since.
2. He seeks to convince you that you are alone.
What frightened me most about the prospect of sharing my struggle with fear was the fact that I had never heard anyone else admit to the same kind of struggle. “I’m weird,” I thought. “No one else has ever had to deal with this.” More importantly I was convinced that if anyone found out that I was struggling, there would be trouble. They wouldn’t understand. Those fears kept me from dealing with the lies I was believing for more than a decade. I was so afraid of being judged, that I refused to seek help. Satan used that isolation to get me to fall for other lies. He will do the same in your life.
3. Lies dwell in the darkness, the truth is found in the light.
In John 12:46 Jesus says, “I have come into the world as a light, so that no one who believes in me should stay in darkness.”
In Acts 26:17-18 he says, “I will rescue you from your own people and from the Gentiles. I am sending you to them to open their eyes and turn them from darkness to light, and from the power of Satan to God, so that they may receive forgiveness of sins and a place among those who are sanctified by faith in me.”
Jesus is the light. His Truth is like a spotlight, highlighting areas of deception and sin in our lives. Satan would like nothing better than to keep us in the dark. He’d rather we not expose the lies in our life. He’d certainly prefer us not to openly share our stories of liberation from lies with others. You have a choice every day to either walk in the Truth of God’s promises or to continue to hide in the dark, hoping that no one will discover your imperfections.
So, what do you say? Are you willing to take a stab at being transparent about impact of lies in your own life? I hope so. This blog is a great place to start. Why not write to us about how this book has impacted you and the specific lies and areas of bondage it has exposed in your life? There certainly is power in bringing the broken places of our lives into the light and I can assure you that if you have identified an area of struggle in your life, many other girls will have the same struggle. They may even find the courage to talk about it as a result of your bravery.
I can’t wait to hear from you!